MOVED.
(:

im sick, again. bloody hell.
i dont want to be sick. not now!

16 PF Test
PW PW.

For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it.
For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it.
For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.
Ivan Panin

yay i got my 5300 (X

i want my new phone!!!
i think ewe and i are fated to get the same phones.
the last time we somehow both ended up with 6200.
now i wanted 5300 and today when she went to get her new phone, she made up her mind (finally!) to get 5300 too! ahhh i want !! but she got the white and purple one, i want the white and red one! but i have to wait a little while longer! :( sigh.

ZANG EWE SEE I HAVE GOOD TASTE! x)

Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, Blessed be your name

http://youtube.com/watch?v=A95am1pBbVE


(:

it takes a soul to make a body come true.

come let us go to the land of love
where the love light shines so bright above
we will be so happy and free
all your pains will let you be

GOING,GONE. i have only myself to blame.

i dont know why im still caring so much afterall. besides i dont think you care anymore. whats over has gone. no point thinking and waiting still.

thursday was spent searching for chicken hamper, then kfc and slippers!haha i think only one person understands this. this person forced me to accompany her to collect a hamper worthed a pathetic sum, but still being the friend i am went along since i would be rotting away at home, in any case. and and the place was so weirdly located and we got wrong directions and stuff. but she got her hamper in the end and was satisfied. being a loser, she tore open the hamper and then started to empty everything in to her bag, since she didnt want to carry it like that. and for my efforts i finally got to eat the meal she owes me for like, i dont know how long! yeah and i gained great satisfaction. (self-discovery eh?) plus the fact we got to share new information gossip! also, we went on this mini slipper-shopping trip since our old ones were kind of pathetic. yes this is how i waste an entire half a day! xD

saturday-sunday girls night out was not bad haha, but more people should come! yeah. i think its time to get my life back on track.
14 days and still counting. is this a new beginning? or an old lie.

x)everythings going to get better.
bye;

firstly, what i would like to say is: SAM IS A PAIN IN THE ASS. haha im sure nobody diagrees on that(: but i think you'r a good leader though. (: (this is meant to boost your ego.)
anyway my EXAMS are over. though i perhaps effectively screwed several papers esp ECONS omg im glad its all over.(: and i knew i couldnt have completed the papers without His strength so thank God for that. (:
haha its been great today and ystd going out the whole day without school and work ever crossing my mind. so yeah (: lifes good now i guess
im not entirely over _ yet but still thanks for the encouragements thru sms/calls etc.
this is for sam again since ill force him to read my post: RMB THE BET. ill make sure youll have to treat me (:
bye bye;

ugh this is so confusing. i dont know what to do. im upset. blah blah. ):

im blogging (:
ocip yinchuan was a blast. never had so much fun with kids before! i have to complete my history term paper now oh NOOOOO. :( its such a major headache.



the floor was burning. ><


:D
bye guys ill update more next time!:P

you'r not my problem .
mm i rushed out ocip stuff today. but i have learning log havn do DAMN. ah but i dont care already.
next weeks a busy week! keep your heads up people! (:
and im leading cell this saturday. AHH ><
im looking forward thursdayXD

you look at the same things but they are no longer the same. pick up whats left you only sink deeper. what happened to the past, the happiness that could last for hours? tell me whats left.it still comes and goes. just take a second and you know that we know it still hurts.

hi people!
school is ): sometimes. ahh but JIAYOU.
HEY I GET TO SEE YOU THIS WEEKEND :D

hmm march hols have ended. i didnt do much homework but still, aha ill rush on monday and stuff.. mondays going to be weird i think..

okay so good luck guys its BACKTO SCHOOL [:

step into the movie you can be my leading man
break into the silence so your heart can understand
step into the movie we could walk along the sand
let me stand beside you put your life into my hand

MARCH HOLS ARE HERE. i need to catch up on my sleep badly. coffee doesnt work all the time!
huangcheng ended yesterday! yup three successful performances ((: hmm i didnt sleep last night and very little for the past few days. so its like two hours per day. i just fell asleep reading a particular wordy blog. ): omg i need sleep !!

i did blog a few days ago but blogger hanged on me can !!
schools been really busy, with alot of stuff going on(academic and non-academic) and even weekends seem so short. like this is bad everythings so chiong. but im glad i have friends and all to keep me going. like friends in my class in some way or another. and still im glad i can still catch up with exclassmates. its like we have alot more to talk now we're in separate classes and all.
anyway to sum it up i survived second month in hwachong. still a long way to go but i couldnt imagine life two months ago ! now.. im just thankful for everything thats happened. good or bad. it all boils down to the fact that i can choose how i want to do my stuff. i cant re live but i can re learn. :D
anyway march hols is coming up. meanwhile just keep your head up and may everything go well for yall. not that it is for me but try.
ill post again shortly yeahh !
oh yeah EMO ppl try to cheer up alright. (:

HELLO.
i havnt updated since asfhioshjkdghihd ago.
basically lifes been hectic but cool.
OUCH. someone just slapped me.
RED IS HOT.
anyway, i achieved what i set out to do.
SHITE.
blahh.

i love you babes. haha. random.(:



BANG!

MERRY CHRISTMAS everbody.
MUCH LOVE from me.

Your back spells ignorance.
I must have been too foolish huh.

anybody interested? you can tell me. :D comecome come! its gna be great. click the image to make it BIGGER and read the words! haha(:


if you really want to click that click here thing, click the one below! the above is just an image. hahaha

POST-BIRTHDAY LOVE.
byebye to being fifteen. yesterday was wonderful. my sweet sixteenth is officially over! I LOVE YOU GUYS! everyone of you yeah rmb that. sixteen is such a wonderful age hahaha.
THANKS JOYCE FOR PUTTING MY UGLY PHOTOS ON YOUR BLOG. but i still love you all the same. you're so sweet and sugary haha(: i saw the sampan!
thankyou daddy for the lovely cake which cost me lots of calories.
thanks JIAYING for treating me to lovely lunch! and you didnt take your present you kuku!
and basically for all for the presents, smses and loveeeeeee.
THANKYOU SO MUCH. :D
have a great year ahead everybody.
oh crap i havnt uploaded photos!!
but i need to get off the com like now before i get yelled at. (: another time!
oh ya last thing CONGRATULATIONS JOYCE!! for getting into the jc of your choice! <33

i wanna go japan again! actually anywhere will do, just get out of singapore. hmmm yes thats how bored i am. someone date me! (: im very free. haha.

this picture was taken ages ago. march i think, during graces camp! i miss the old days.(: hahaha i think i look stupid. the smileys so much nicer! :D

GRAD NIGHT (:




xiyu,andrea,me!






jiaying and me!<33





me, xuee,jiaying!


uploading photos on my com is so slow la! haha the food wasnt that great and the emcee was so -.- but it was fun la getting together again. i miss nanyang. ):

KYUSHU　<33






















the reason why the photos do not include us is cos i havnt used photoshop to edit them so theyll look nicer.(: meanwhile,enjoy these.:D

JAPAN









bloggers killing me. i shall upload photos tmrow then.

GRAD NIGHT
i have a pretty dress but itll turn out like crap and ugly shit on me. sighh!
this the last time we have together. :(

graduation night next thursday. this is bad!
anyway i so do want to go overseas again. bring me away!
oh well everybodys working and im slacking away. because i refuse to get a job. well im turning into a lazy pig.):
i was at orchard yesterday and i saw rachelgoh working! haha yep at some art thing.(:
dead tired yesterday after shopping.
oh well i have church tomorrow.
its raining heavily now.

this is great. theres going to be a mini party at my house this sunday. with little screaming boys and girls. (: all are welcome, aged seven to twelve.

okkay joyce's keyboard is screwed. it short-circuited or something. so shes using the mouse to scribble throughout the entire msn convo, its amusing. haha.HELP PEOPLE IM BORED STIFF. I HAVE GOT NOTHING TO DO WHEN IM AT HOME AND I CANT POSSIBLY GO OUT EVERYDAY RIGHT. im sure the olev ppl might want to slap my face if they read this cos they have three more days before their long awaited break!(:
mm i went to vivo city yesterday. it was not bad la i think. the places rather big. and the cinema was freaking crowded! haha cos there were mostly alot of young people there. so yep.
oh yah talkin about japan my camera screwed up there! i was so super pissed with it can. haha but its okkay i shall go steal the photos from others.
hmm oh yeah my poor third earhole closed. sucks! cos i lost one earring and forgot to replace? how sad. i shall go and pierce again, but this time on the other ear i think.
so long, me and my boring life. i need to spice up my life, seriously.

im backk! haha miss me right. it was a good trip, i shall update details in my next post! yayy(:

japan! tommorrow night im flyying. dont miss me hah. i shall have a nice time.(: ill be backk on the 11th of nov! bye dears.

yesterday was the last day in ny. never ever thought this day would come yet it did and its over. welll i guess this is life! things come and go when you least expect it. i knew this day would come, last time i wish it would come faster then i could get out of nanyang but now i just dont wna leave. cos im sure everyone can feel some sort of attatchment to this school and the thought of starting afresh, building a new relationship with another school is just scary. i mean theres going to be so many changes to face and undergo i cant really predict what its going to be like when im really there. guess thats what it means when reality hits hard.
okay if anyone who is reading this cant comprehend the above, its okkay because i dont really know whether i was making sense. hmm.
okkay yesterday was also cca farewell. hmm not all sec fours were there but it was memorable in a way too bah. first time there was a ceremony and stuff. yes the bottle of stars will be filled!! ehh juniors thanks for chip and the notebook! <33 yall lots and continue living on cca dreams! yeahh basically i hope the cca will stay united and be able to achieve greater heights. <33 u ppl thanks for making my time in nanyang so memorable.
mm and mdm maks farewell. first time i sang the school song with pride. sing as in not just mouthing the words or not even moving my mouth at all. but sing!! yeah i think i really do love nanyang though sometimes i dont feel like that or show it. but it was the place of my many memories. grew and learnt alot in there. hmmm i have alot to thank it for. thats just my love-hate relationship with nanyang!
hmmm ehh this post is quite long. heheh i have some photos but another time?
to end, i just love all you people for making my life in nanyang so great! i cant imagine life without any one of you.ahh <33.
i shall go bathe and prepare for cellllllll. bye!
(:




when i say i love you, it will mean forever.

yes jessamin updated her blog. thats the biggest news of the universe! i shall update more and more regularly okkay.

i love the post-exam period. when i dont have to sit down for hours and bury my face in the sea of papers. though i have to say it feels really wierd that that was the last time i was ever taking exams in nanyang.like four years just pass like that. although ive always had this love-hate realtionship with this school, ill really miss the four years i had there. it was there i saw the true side of life, found many great friends whom ill never forget, and learnt to move on. aha this sounds like some graduating speech so i wont continue anymore, only when i truly (hope to) graduate next week. and i like that white uniform okkay but i dont want to wear it again after this year!
but seriously im running out of things to do post exams.
monday
watched scoop. (the show has a funny plot lah.) but we didnt really have any other choice because yes, i know, i am not officially sixteen yet and we were in school u so couldn't watch banquet. hmph two more months okkay!

tuesday
went online till i had nothing more to do. tried reading those books but got bored. ended up at some pasar malam hurhur.

wednesday
went out to watch little miss sunshine. see i got in even though its nc16 okkay! cos i wasnt wearing sch u lah. the show was not bad. and the grandfathers so funny lah. so sad he died. then later met helen jamie carolyn cos it was ANDREAS DAY! hah didnt know what she wanted but in the end we bought a blouse for her. hope u like it (i know you like it!)
and eating at 'the line' was a scare. haha thought we could enjoy the posh-ness. anw nydc was equally good too. i love nydc's mudpies <33! and my mango tango! <3. it felt great not nedding to care about homework and stuff cos exams are over.
mm and i changed blogskin. ewe changed hers too right! ahaha.hey why never go kap ah YOU! ohh my mum says go out. yeaah bye!

im laying the path of destruction for myself.
i dont know why im having this bad feeling.
up for ponning school this fri.
shite. i really mean that.

damn.i dont think u have the right to comment when u arent even a role model yourself.
on a second note yiwei and i had a bad day today. hha i wont elaborate. ):
and im hungry. should i go tmr? hhaha.
im getting stupid. HELP.

hmph. the eoys seem dangerously close. thirty plus days left only and ive like hardly really touched anyting. argh helpp. hmm i bet yiwei is upset that she stopped going to kap. awh i feel sad for u too lah. ok shell kill me if she ever reads this lah. and my noob junior just asked me to like shed a tear or two during farewell. -.-fine i will lahh. haha. evthing around mes driving me crazy. i dont think im functioning well in case you didnt notice. argh. i shall go mug now argh i wish i could love studying loh. but anw. hmph nvm. oh and my observation is that my whole class disappears after school in like five mins plus then im like where have they gone? all went home to mug lah. sighh this is a sign for me to start doing smth before i really really regret it. ccas gone and ev tues and thurs theres like nothing for me after school and it feels really wierd? though i still get to see yiwei ev thurs for maths remedial. haha oh i hate seeing her lor. hah i realise i hv been really mean to her in this post so i shall stop before i get a taste of my own medicine. oh she has a very interesting voodoo doll collection in case you din know. hahah ive been like not really going cell for a long time. argh. hmmi need to be a more disciplined person. and more focused too. bah. it was really wierdseeing somebody at somewhere too because of youknow all thats happened and we talk really wierdly afterthat. but i dont know why i felt really wierd tonight. im not supposed to rite? if that person reads this you might not even know its referring to you bah.but anw whatever. argh. goodnight dears.

haha i know i havent updated for ages. later lah i will come bck tmr and update de. haha cos i need to get my ass off this chair in front of the com. like rite now. bye ppl. <33. and i'm be changing to lj soon.

dont expect me to think of you; anytime.

hello!im back. ahh. week six is so damn stressed. how many thousand stuff. Help me through!
someone just commented the i update like once a month on lame stuff.fine lah humph. oh joyce’s two free movie tickets expired and she happily wanted to watch free movies with them. haha ok lahh poor thing!
Hmph, oh I had sabbathicals last week. Maths remedial wasn’t as terrible as I thought. Though the lessons with my own teacher was -_-‘ but overall it was ok. At least I get to do maths since im so lousy at it and I seldom like to practice it. sigh lah. Blah blah I hate school. Actually not really hate lah but sonetimes I really dread going there cos im faced with like endless stuff there that makes me get a headache! Blahh and I keep telling myself to mug but somehow I cant really concentrate at all.. and they kepp telling me to study. Its not as if I don’t study lah. At least I put in some effort rite. Shucks I don’t really understand all these ive written. Don’t read people its plain crap.

1507 has finally come to and end!!! (:
hehe all i can say was that it was a great success! 心韵新韵 rocks lah im sure itlll stay as a special part of our memories forever! (:
though the day of 1507 was -_-" for one part but overall it was great yeah.
and i love zang ewe too! shes a really really nice girl haha glad to know you lah. (:
1507 <333333333
*:D

1507 <333

heheh i suppose this will be another once in a long time super short post. ill blog when im free again lah. anws the past few days have been hectic hectic. but its all worth it lah. haha. and my thirtyfive dollars flew away for grad night. it was a last minute decision to go cos my friends wahted to go too. anw sixty five dollars is like HEART PAIN.

tomorrows 1507 '06. a really really important day. jiayou guys- all your work for tmr!! watch the fruits of labor! haha anw we'll do great yeah! (:

oh and its not officially saturday yet but happy sweet sixteen xueen! God bless u. love ya!! *(:

goodnite evbody.
LOVE!

bored bored bored. i need youuuuuuuuuuuuu! ):

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerousPeople will stop and watch you when you appearEven though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

i knew i was powerful. proves it all. HAHA. (:

You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you want to know hwo you will commit suicide, take a look at your second highest percentage on the bar graphs. Suicide 87% Posion 80% Disappear 73% Suffocated 67% Bomb 67% Eaten 67% Stabbed 60% Disease 53% Gunshot 47% Accident 47% Drowning 40% Cut Throat 33% Natural Causes 27% How Will You Die?? created with QuizFarm.com

zang yiwei stepped into the male toilet in chinatown point. she went all the way in. i had to stop her. my LOVELY friend. (:

heyyyy.

You Are Coffee Ice Cream

Energetic and lively, you are always on the go.You're doing a million things at once and doing them well.You tend to motivate others and raise spirits. You are most compatible with chocolate ice cream.

im addicted to coffee.

Snickers

Nutty and gooey - you always satisfy.

funny thing is, i like snickers. used to. i try to be off-chocolate now.

i shall say proper stuff tmr. right now i feel like sleeping. and die.

portfolio. portfolio. portfolio. hell yeah. im going crazy.

i just screwed up big time again. sheesh.

honestly, i dont give a ****ing shit.

hmm haiz im boredd lah. i know ive got alot of stuff to do but i just dont feel like doing anything. ive become really unmotivated. not like the past me. i think ive really changed alot, mebbe for the worse. its like im sinking into this sea not becos someones trying to drown me but cos im drowning myself. and i cant help it. two years ago i wouldnt have seen this message on my phone and get really emotional. two years ago i wouldnt have cried while trying to study cos i cant put aside other stuff in my head. but i dont know if changing like this helps or not. cos on one hand it seems like i get to see the real side of the world better, but on the other hand im actually suffering. not just my grades and stuff, but the way i see things now.
the only things that keep me alive now are few but meaningful. and i guess i need to really learn how to treasure them, cos they are starting to mean ALOT to me. i know im not the same, but somehow i dont regret it. cos i feel really thankful and lucky to have these happenings in my life. perhaps i should start using these as my source of motivation.

cos theres always a bright light at the end of the tunnel that leads me to you. :)

hmm haiz im boredd lah. i know ive got alot of stuff to do but i just dont feel like doing anything. ive become really unmotivated. not like the past me. i think ive really changed alot, mebbe for the worse. its like im sinking into this sea not becos someones trying to drown me but cos im drowning myself. and i cant help it. two years ago i wouldnt have seen this message on my phone and get really emotional. two years ago i wouldnt have cried while trying to study cos i cant put aside other stuff in my head. but i dont know if changing like this helps or not. cos on one hand it seems like i get to see the real side of the world better, but on the other hand im actually suffering. not just my grades and stuff, but the way i see things now.
the only things that keep me alive now are few but meaningful. and i guess i need to really learn how to treasure them, cos they are starting to mean ALOT to me. i know im not the same, but somehow i dont regret it. cos i feel really thankful and lucky to have these happenings in my life. perhaps i should start using these as my source of motivation.

cos theres always a bright light at the end of the tunnel that leads me to you. :)

im UPdating. bah. hmm chinese midyears was a total screw. i was scrambling to finish at the end. my chinese really sucks, im so slow. hmm, can only hope for the best next monday.
today was combined sports meet. which was stupid lah. we were burning under the sun so after watching rachel run, we just got up and walked away. later decided to just sit up there and not come back. it was up there where we realised that there were so many who couldnt be bothered about the whole thing. and we sat there right till the end of the entire sports meet. and all the while yiwei was away doing illegal stuff. tsktsk. lol. she was carrying a handbag today! (:
but at least better than ppl who werent supposed to be there but were there just for the sake of flirting. made me want to puke there and THEN. i hate despos.
after that everyone wanted to go home and helen went out with the dancers. TSK. haha but anw i had company in the end.
anw i have to go back there again tmr for cca. bah. its vesak day. a HOLIDAY. (: k i shall not whine or ill seem like a brat. (:
my brothers eating up all the chocolate in the fridge. i shall fight for my share now.buh-bye.

haha im back again. theres a nine chapter physics test next week. i feel like i could stab myself. blahblah. yesterday we finished watching dead man walking. a few people cried after the show. yup. its sad that you have to die just when u have the courage to face up to your own mistakes and see love straight in the eye. to see someone who always seem so strong in front of you, for you, just break down one day is heart wrenching. it boils down to the fact that humans are weak emotionally. everyone needs love. REGRET is a big cause of sorrow. damn it i just regretted something i did this week, but its all over.
this days i get really sad, its like just stuff keep coming and cause me to get upset. and today when i saw THAT a tear just rolled down my cheek. im losing control of my emotions, i think.
we nt to church today blahblah.t oday is my brothers birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJAMIN!! haha <33. (though he most probably wont see this.) hes seventeen already lah damn scary, he will be going to army soon. :(
tomorrow have to go dunman for this performance. hmm i dont know if this is a waste of my time. but i shall go happily lah. :)
i love lime icecream. makes me happy. <33

hey people im backk!! cos most tests are over. im a nerdd. (: im left with physics and chinese midyears. argh cant wait for them to be over lah. whats this man.
CANCEL OUT ALL THAT IS NOT TRUE.
DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistical. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

basically i would have to cancel out every thing. the above cant be entirely true. except the part about hating restrictions and being hasty, perhaps.
if im logical, explain my maths results. (:

yesterday went to support helen during the heats. apparently not cos by the time me and jiaying reached, she finished her running. pfft haha anw just sat there and the wind was real strong and nice.

i shall blog more often, so that i can remember more clearly what i have been doing. i cant rmb things much.
but alot of things have happened this days i think. its time to sort out my thoughts.

and i really dont know what i am trying to do.

hello! i m at jiayings house. her house is very neat and tidy and very niceeeeeeeeee! yup.
and my whole point of blogging is to tell everyone that zhiyang ROCKS!!! (: haha hes so cool larh! and his singing is so great, so he deserves to win Campus Superstar! He is the pride of hwachong! haha yeah, and hes going to be our senior!! Anybody who hasnt watched his performances go online and see, you will be convinced how great he is- his singing skills are so pro. im so glad he won!! ahhh... <33333333333 zhiyang-

haha yup today was bad?
hm kept picking on me . hello the compo is today hand in de, and i happened not to finish it by her period. this doesnt imply ill not finish it by today(your period is not even the end of the day.)
and i was not the only one and like you chose to only call me. then you claimed that it was suppoesed to be done by morning! this is total crap lah, honestly i felt like throwing my compo in your face. and you ended with this smirk remark; yao ti gao xue xi xiao lu!
i hate her lah.
and we were writing -'s card. haha we had an interesting time. then while yiwei was at meeting, she turned to smsing me because of the awkwardness(?). haha jess help me! tts what she said in her msg. haha you must learn to talk with that huazhueng person since you will be working together in the future. hahha yeah.
hmmx i sincerely hope tomorrow will be better. yah,<3.

the links are proudly updated by me :D
not alot. but oh well better than nothing right jess(:
-jiaying<3

my blog is back! please clap for me, i hope i learn to update regularly. jiaying can help me too being the sweet person she always is. hurhur.
today was stupid. i was like sick and couldnt take it already lahh. but i drank LEMSIP and felt alot better. yay lemsip rocks. i feel so healthy now. whatever.
cca was ok i guess, yahhh.
my whole point of this entry is to emphasise the fact that yiwei abandoned me. like how could she lohh HMPH, haha. She wanted to follow weilins car home and promptly left me alone. how could she. AHHHHHH. and i waited for so freakin long before 67 came. i felt like slapping the bus drivers face lah seriously. but anyway yiwei owes me food now because of this.
prom night coming soon! ahaha i dont want to know what will happen. andrea rachy and yeebeeng are my roomies. yay. haha okays good nitee dears.

i hate my life- wish it could be better, I could be better. wth.